Then I think about...
My teeny Bryan (literally the shortest kid in the 2nd grade). How his love for wrestling & wild animals lead to the most random stories at the most random times of the day but never fail to make me smile.
My Camillita & her need to be the best teacher's pet at Explore as well as everything else. Not to mention to hear her say the word, "little" will literally melt your heart.
I cannot forget to mention her amazingly cute illustrations, either.
Michael, who has caused white hairs to sprout but whose absentmindedness, creativity & non linear thinking have me thinking that maybe second grade Fran was probably like him. This will sometimes work in restoring my short well of patience.
Dylan, who while not in my class, will make my day upon uttering "good morning" in his unique twang.
Or, Jorge, who if I could I would take home with me. On this day, he pointed out how our shoes were the same. Then jeans. Then shirt. And finally yelled, "twins!".
The progression of the year has been long and painful. There's been nights where I have come home, dragged myself into the shower & bawled, ready to call in my resignation. Between Fran, our two dads & non-teaching friends, I have heard the "quit" speech multiple times. But, I can't. I seriously cannot.
These 23 little peeps have me hooked around their pinkies.
As crazy as they drive me, as frustrated as they can make me, as much as I can dislike them (that's right, I said it): they mean the world to me and because of that, I cannot throw in the towel.
I only pray that this upcoming semester will require less sacrifices because this time, no matter what, I am putting myself, Fran, Doakes & family first. I am determined to become a better teacher for them by working on becoming a healthier, happier me.
It sounds selfish. It sounds un-teacherlike. But, I truly think that by doing this, my teaching mojo will come back & I'll be able to rock it once again. In the meantime, I'm dusting off my NYC bucket list. Northeast winter: here I come!
PS: did I fail to mention just how well these teeny peeps know me? Just check out my christmas goods from them-
hello kitty, anthro, starbucks & ferrero: win, win, win! They ended the party with a bang leaving me such awesome loot.