Friday, February 11, 2011

Want to hear something crazy? We are into February. This may not be a big deal right now but, in a teacher's calendar the summer is right along the corner (3 months)! 

I left the classroom thinking I would be happier working with more kids only to find that you can only spread yourself so thin before you are completely useless. Circumstances (fate?) made it so I came back into the classroom and I have fallen irrevocably back in love with teaching. I'm in a bit of a conundrum. There's a few opportunities that are opening up for me and I don't know which way to go. The option to teach is always open and thanks to this particular group of feisty fourth graders I am excited to walk into school each morning. The stress that is plaguing me is not because of their inabilities or them as a whole, it's the fear that I do not have what it takes to get them to succeed. A part of me wishes I could go onto 5th grade with them to keep them close for an additional school year but, frankly, that's a grade I do not wish to tackle (science TAKS, yikes). 

Shhh...I know teachers aren't supposed to have favorites but, SS has completely won my heart. If I could take him home, I would. He's a smart ass, super bright, creative, ambitious, sarcastic and one of the coolest kids I've ever interacted with. Not to mention, his smile literally lights up a room. 

This is why teaching is so hard. You grow so attached, you can't let them down even when you really don't have any more tricks up your sleeve. All I have to say is teaching writing is the hardest obstacle I've come across. Ever.

Wish us luck! TAKS countdown t-minus 11 days...


Heidi said...

I'm positive that you're doing an amazing job teaching, those kids are so lucky to have you as a teacher. Sorry you're stuck in this pickle- there are so many amazing opportunities for you out there, but there is something to be said for just being happy to go to work everyday.

Oscar el Mexicano said...

If life is bringing you opportunities is because at higher level, your influence will reach thousands, not just a group, so I'd say God is telling you something with these doors being opened.

Just food for thought! Normally as a Dad, and in order to be listened, I had to say a different thing, but I trust your criteria.

Love, hugs, blessings.
Yo mero