Want to hear something crazy? We are into February. This may not be a big deal right now but, in a teacher's calendar the summer is right along the corner (3 months)!
I left the classroom thinking I would be happier working with more kids only to find that you can only spread yourself so thin before you are completely useless. Circumstances (fate?) made it so I came back into the classroom and I have fallen irrevocably back in love with teaching. I'm in a bit of a conundrum. There's a few opportunities that are opening up for me and I don't know which way to go. The option to teach is always open and thanks to this particular group of feisty fourth graders I am excited to walk into school each morning. The stress that is plaguing me is not because of their inabilities or them as a whole, it's the fear that I do not have what it takes to get them to succeed. A part of me wishes I could go onto 5th grade with them to keep them close for an additional school year but, frankly, that's a grade I do not wish to tackle (science TAKS, yikes).
Shhh...I know teachers aren't supposed to have favorites but, SS has completely won my heart. If I could take him home, I would. He's a smart ass, super bright, creative, ambitious, sarcastic and one of the coolest kids I've ever interacted with. Not to mention, his smile literally lights up a room.
This is why teaching is so hard. You grow so attached, you can't let them down even when you really don't have any more tricks up your sleeve. All I have to say is teaching writing is the hardest obstacle I've come across. Ever.
Wish us luck! TAKS countdown t-minus 11 days...